Josephine Jewkes, dancer with Rambert and formerly an ENB Principal, writes each month on the "dancing life".
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February 99
The Law of Sod decrees that just when I have found a company that makes me happy and appreciates my work, I have to leave. The inevitable conversation took place early this month in which it was mutually agreed that my contract could not be renewed in April. If a miraculous recovery enables me to reaudition fully-fit and in good shape in the summer then I am welcome, but neither Chris nor I believe that is likely. In a strange way, I am relieved and feel the weight of people's expectations fall from my shoulders. Now I have a blank slate on which to sketch my future. My past on the other hand, is rather tangled and I am still too close to see it objectively. I may well talk things through with a professional in order to let go and lay it to rest. At least I can shift the focus from my body to consider a wider range of concerns now that it functions well enough for everyday tasks. Like a naughty child it has been banished to the corner now that it has hogged all the attention for long enough.
On April 19 Tim and I move to a less-than-prime house in Kew where he will continue to commute to Denmark(!) and I will prepare to enter University to study Architecture or Landscape Architecture at Kingston (I hope). By the autumn we envisage that Tim will have established some regular teaching in London and I may find time for some teaching/coaching if I feel up to it. On March 1 I start part-time at Kew Gardens so be sure to say "hi" if you are passing through!
Spring is on the way, how can I not be full of new beginnings?
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